Healing And Releasing

— 7 Big Problems To Fix

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Hi All, and welcome to my post exploring ways of healing and releasing my pain. I’ve been pretty candid in other posts about trauma I’ve suffered in the past and also revelations from my time in therapy. I have wondered lately if my work is doing any good as I’m not really feeling all that much better. I keep reminding myself that it’s a process. I’ve had depression and anxiety related to trauma for 30 years, I won’t fix it in a couple of months. Another problem is that it can be hard to remember the breakthroughs as each session involves a lot of talking.

So, as much for me as for you, I’m going to list all my messed up shit:

• At the heart of all my issues is one overriding thought — “I’m not good enough”
• I feel like it’s my job to look after people and I find it hard to let people look after me. A few hours, or maybe a day is all I can do.
• I don’t ask for help enough, I prefer to play the martyr and make passive aggressive comments
• My trauma personality is A Doer. I put all my self esteem on what I achieve and I need to keep busy, otherwise what’s the point of me?
• I hate people being angry with me, it freaks me out and sends me into fight or flight.
• My relationship with my husband is…