Coping 101. If Your Life Is Sinking Into A Hole, Stop Digging!
No movement is better than going down
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Hi friends. Today I want to share a secret with you. I am not ok! I feel like my life is on a downward trajectory, and I can’t seem to find the brakes. So, today I’m going to share what I feel is wrong and what I plan to do about it.
Health
I am exhausted right now. The most minor tasks seem unbelievably huge, hence my not publishing an article last Sunday. I am eating too much pre-prepared food like ready meals, as I only have the energy to cook a few times a week. My husband is taking over most of the housework, and I am just managing to go to work and keep up with my writing commitments too.
There could be several reasons for this tiredness:
- I have chronic fatigue syndrome
- I have depression which also causes apathy and tiredness
- I caught covid in June and have not really felt right since
- England has been unusually hot and sleeping is a challenge
It could be any or all of these things, but it’s getting me down. I feel completely burned out.
Depression
Is my tiredness causing me to have such a low mood, or is my depression making me tired? Unfortunately, it’s impossible to know. They are definitely interconnected.
This apathy and exhaustion mean I’m not exercising. I know I should, I know I must, but I can’t bring myself to do it.
My Job
I like my job to an extent. I like that I can pretty much choose my work times each day. I also like that I have a large list of tasks that I’m responsible for, and it’s up to me how I do them and in what order. No micromanaging. Unfortunately, it’s such a small department that if I don’t do the tasks, no one else will. So if I’m off sick or on holiday, the work just keeps building up. I then feel stressed, meaning it’s harder to enjoy my holidays or take the time I need to recover when I’m ill.
