Beautifully written. No one who hasn’t experienced it can understand the exhaustion, the chest crushing misery, the lack of will to even exist anymore. If they did they wouldn’t make asinine suggestions like journalling. I’m very glad you’re feeling better. In my case, I feel like I’m constantly under siege. All my defences and medications just keeping depression at bay. Then every now and then it breaks through the lines and I have a really shit time. Thanks for writing this piece xx